Playing Catch Up

I haven't blogged since February when Jordan and I were engaged so I believe that it is due time.  On June 9th Jordan and I were married. (: (: (:

We have been living together for a month now! I can't believe how fast the time has gone by.  I love being married, I love seeing my best friend every day.  Some times i miss my famiy but that's to be expected. When we were married I was lucky enough to have 2 bridal showers, a luncheon with my family and an open house in California.  I feel spoiled.

 I live in Salt Lake now, its quite big compared to Springville but it really has grown on me.  

One of my favorite things about my relationship with Jordan is that it is SO simple!  We know what makes each other happy and we do those things, it brings us closer and strengthens our bond.  Likewise we know what truly bothers each other.  And when we get to steppin' on each others toes we know how to fix things quickly.  I love our relationship because i can only stay grumpy for so long until I wanna show him something i think is cool, or I just wanna cuddle up in his arms :) Fortunately enough for me, I am a bigger stinker then he is, and once i've had my ten minutes of being a girl he is there for me to come to again.  I'm so grateful for that and for the amount of understanding that we have for each other.  We have been together for 16 months now and they have been the happiest of my life(:

engaged:)

I love being engaged! Even though I knew we were going to get married from the start, I love it! What I don

't love is the silly girls giving me looks at school.  Not necessarily mean looks, but looks.  I just don't like attention haha. But that's okay! I cannot wait to be graduated and then marry my best friend.  He means the world to me. I love my ring, but it's not the ring that matters.  All that this thing wrapped around my finger means is that I have a Fiance, soon to be husband who will love me forever.  It means i'm taken as is he.  It means that every day when i'm sad or feeling down,  I have big comforting arms to hold me while I cry it out.  I couldn't ask for any one better then Jordan I truly couldn't.  He sings me to sleep,  He wipes away my tears.  He also quiets all of my fears. He makes me fall a little deeper then the day before. (: to me, he's darn close to perfect.

ugh.

The weddings getting closer, but not quite close enough.  

There are

9158400 Seconds,

or

149760 Minutes

or

2469 Hours

or

104 Days

or

15 Weeks Left.  

And if you ask me, its too darn far away.  But i'm enjoying the time with my family and I love watching Jordan interact with my family.  They all love him, and he loves all of them.  But most importantly we love each other.(:

Here is a poem I wrote. Its about Jordan and I. Our journey and struggle to get us where we are today,  It hasn't been easy, everything's been thrown at us:

Together

When I look at our past, the strength we have grown is apparent,

 every trial, doubt and fear has been thrown at us.  

It was foolish of our adversary to think the one place, 

the only arms, 

the very kiss I find solace in, i would leave in my past,

nothing has been left behind other then their ignorant judgments and a trail of weak tears.

 We have now over come the dark snare of thorns that tried to drag us down, 

for every time you had fallen,

 i would fall with you only to again ascend higher then ever in the past, 

for our love has taken us from desolate places to the enchantment of a child's fairy-tale,

 a princess' dream come true,

 for it is my own shining knight that i have found in a world that is relentless to the pleas of a heart lost in disbelief and fear.

some may call it happenstance,

 others a mere infatuation, 

we know the truth, 

my heart called for yours, and through their journey of years, 

all along they were answering each others beat, venturing steadily into the others arms,

 though a painful and lonesome endeavor, 

we were lead to the greatest of rewards,

 arms that hold tight, 

smiles that diminish our tears, 

and the voice of true love that conquers the darkest of fears. 






Side note:
with all that is being said above, I know some one might say and most likely will think the following:
"Ohh they think the hard part is all over now that they are engaged" or "just wait until they see how hard it really is to be in a relationship"
For you to think or say these things is quite ridiculous.  If you thought these things maybe you should think about how hard its already been getting this far as you read above. Do you think this makes us think it's all over and easy from here on out? If you do, i'm sorry you believe me to be that weak minded.  I know this is only the beginning and that it will be tough.  But i'm ready and I love him and I believe that if we both try a little harder each and every day we will come out on top.
Thanks,
-Kylee. 

Wedding Dress?

I'm so excited to get married! No, we are not engaged yet but our rings are ordered! Just waitin on him to pop the question(:

Anyways, I've started actually planning the big day! It's in 118 days if any of you were wondering,

June 9th! In the Salt Lake City Temple. 

I've started looking at dresses and was struggling to find a modest one! grr.

but i scored. I found one in the style i love for a price my momma should like! perfect i know.

We have been dating for over 11 months and I am more then ready get married(:

I think this speaks for itself. :)

Now, I have thought a lot lately about you young men who are of an age to marry but who have not yet felt to do so. I see lovely young ladies who desire to be married and to raise families, and yet their opportunities are limited because so many young men are postponing marriage....

I realize there are many reasons why you may be hesitating to take that step of getting married. If you are concerned about providing financially for a wife and family, may I assure you that there is no shame in a couple having to scrimp and save. It is generally during these challenging times that you will grow closer together as you learn to sacrifice and to make difficult decisions. Perhaps you are afraid of making the wrong choice. To this I say that you need to exercise faith. Find someone with whom you can be compatible. Realize that you will not be able to anticipate every challenge which may arise, but be assured that almost anything can be worked out if you are resourceful and if you are committed to making your marriage work.

Brethren, there is a point at which it’s time to think seriously about marriage and to seek a companion with whom you want to spend eternity. If you choose wisely and if you are committed to the success of your marriage, there is nothing in this life which will bring you greater happiness."

Thanks President Monson.

Getting married at my age is somewhat looked down on by some members.  Believe me I've prayed and pondered if I'm making the right choice.    Time after time I have felt peace with this decision.  Jordan and I frequently pray together about the matter also.  I think i'm kinda experiencing the calm before the storm back wards.  Right now its storming down on us like crazy.  I'm starting to think that righteous decisions don't go with out persecution and that's okay.  If anything, the trials we are facing with the decision to eventually be married has only strengthened my testimony on the matter.  Now with that being said, I know marriage won't be a cake walk,  it be will tough.  But, I would rather go through the tough times being married, having a constant best friend than a soon to be college student alone.  Or living with other woman, and no offense to you roomies but that's not something i want for myself.  The only roommate i want is my eternal companion. And quite frankly I don't see anything wrong with that.

It's kind of a silly thing that the one lesson always taught to us,, to enter the house of the lord worthily is the decision we ARE making and its looked down upon.. maybe instead of looking down at us, you should get down on your knee's and ask for yourself.

I believe this decision is between God, Jordan, and I.

The temple,, 

                                                            we're going there someday...(:

I believe its due time

Jordan has a talent that made me first fall in love with him.  Since it's the very thing that brought us together, and he deserves recognition i decided i'd share. 

He writes the most beautiful poetry.  Don't take my word for it, read it for yourself.

Here is an excerpt of a poem i recently rediscovered that really offered me comfort tonight:

‎"When all feels lost and overcome by doubt, I will be here with open arms awaiting embrace. When the walls of your bower close in about you and all seems nothing more then a hope just remember, is our love not written in the stars? Was it not your face that is engraved upon my heart? It is not a fading chance or a glimmer of hope that ties our fates together, its this passionate ardor evermore present and thriving as our first embrace so long ago. And if you were to ask how i know, its simple my dear. it glistens in the twinkle of your eye which proliferates such perfection only achieved through this love we share dwelling in our hearts."

This next poem is especially near to my heart.  here is the story behind it.

During the summer my dad (trevor) got in a roll over accident in the middle of no where in Colorado.  He was ejected from his semi-truck which happened to be a haz-mat load.  This was about all the information i was given for about an hour.  I was of course broken down and even more so broken hearted.  My superman Jordan was in Arizona where he was living at the time so he was out of my reach.  I had no means of comfort until he sent this poem my way:

"It is in moments such as these that I have left my heart to dispair. I feel the waves of the deep swallow me whole and I reach for anything as my discordence is the only thing in sight. I know you cry alone under a moon that is merciless to your pleas for release. Take heed to these words my love and know that I stand here to bear you up even as I write these words I reach out to your heart, standing under the same sky I lift my eyes to the heavens as I look upon your portrait painted with the stars, my hand outstretched in seek of yours a thousand miles in the distance. On this midnight breeze I sing these words to pierce your soul, weighed down by tragedy, my heart torn by the sadness of my beloved. I yurn to hold you close and serenade you with my lullaby, the architecture of which was brought to life in purpose to heal your severed soul. With every tear shed another one falls from my eyes, with every sorrow my heart is anchored down farther. Screams will be heard this night as I fight within myself knowing Im not there in your time of need. Alas, my dearest darling, my beautiful bride, though my flesh binds me to this lascerating longevity, I will in spirit break these boundaries that separate our hearts. I have called upon my god and he has heard my cries, he awaits to deliever to you all the strength in this my lionheart. As you crash admist the waves on this blackened night, I shall be the lighthouse atop harbor to guide you home into my arms. Before the twilight shall claim this rapture, these last words I leave, I love you beautiful."

We drove to Colorado that night with my fathers parents and everything turned out okay if you were wondering(:

Since this post after all is a tribute to my sweetheart, here is the first poem I ever read of his, unknowingly addressed to me:

Underneath the midnight eclipse, I walked to and fro, awaiting for the exordium of this edifice that enthralls such depths of romance that my frail heart, a vessel of amourous elixir, might once again unearth resolution to undo the blackest of tempests, that which lies in recreant dispondency. As my heart impatiently awaited the hands of the clock to return to their concise rhythm, my eyes adorned in the aura of an angel, in the presence of her, keeper of the key that contorts the gears of this lock that guards the encasement of my vessel. Dare I exact revenge against this thief who has in this moment of illusion stolen the very breath from my lungs? As i stood befuddled before this emblem of perfection, my vessel like a pyre, on the verge of ignition at her first touch. As my inner caitiff began to bleed through my disposition, i saw her smile start to fade as she turned to walk away and any hope of true love began to vanquish, my vehemence arose to decimate this incantation of silence between our hearts, a beautiful cadence overtook the air. This serenade of dire passion, this exordium of an edifice, reflected the infinite desire to do nothing more in this existence than to be held by her celestial embrace and to gaze into her eyes, the sparkle of which puts to rest the resplendent of Heaven's light, such as a candle in a room of illumination. The return of her fervor to my sight, brought to life new strength as i stretched forth my hand, a promise to never leave, and as she took it, we ascended to a glorious realm as we danced among the stars, none to compare to the vivid refractions of luminous crystal, that are her eyes.

Here are my creepy facebook comments, I was going more for the "hehe just stumbled upon this and loved it, i dont stalk you at all or anything" look.. hopefully he fell for it?? 

i agree with halee,

it really is beautiful jordan. 

(:

He has written me soo much.  

I hold all of his poems near and dear to my heart, maybe i will share more another time. 

(: 

Another way he loves me(:

Short post, but he deserves the credit.  Jordan is such a sweetheart and brought me breakfast in bed twice in a week! I'm loved, I know. Of course he knows me best and brings me my favorites.
-Beto's bean and cheese
-Passionfruit-Orange Rockstar. 


I'm easy to please i know(:
I just think its the cutest that he would wake up early before I did and bring me my favorites to my house. Small and simple is how we roll but it keeps us more then happy. 
I can't wait till we are married! 

Ten months.. Really? (:

soo,, last week Jordan and I celebrated our ten month anniversary! Double digits baby,

any ways we went to apple bees and just enjoyed each others company. Us being the silly couple we are couldn't decide on just what to order! So we shared and it turned out perfect.. 

I really can't believe its almost been  a year!! But what I really can't wait for is June.. 

come fast please?? i wanna get this show on the road..

any ways... here is a pic update of us love birds (: 

i most defiantly got the better end of the deal! 

Lucky girl right there ^^