engaged:)

I love being engaged! Even though I knew we were going to get married from the start, I love it! What I don

't love is the silly girls giving me looks at school.  Not necessarily mean looks, but looks.  I just don't like attention haha. But that's okay! I cannot wait to be graduated and then marry my best friend.  He means the world to me. I love my ring, but it's not the ring that matters.  All that this thing wrapped around my finger means is that I have a Fiance, soon to be husband who will love me forever.  It means i'm taken as is he.  It means that every day when i'm sad or feeling down,  I have big comforting arms to hold me while I cry it out.  I couldn't ask for any one better then Jordan I truly couldn't.  He sings me to sleep,  He wipes away my tears.  He also quiets all of my fears. He makes me fall a little deeper then the day before. (: to me, he's darn close to perfect.

ugh.

The weddings getting closer, but not quite close enough.  

There are

9158400 Seconds,

or

149760 Minutes

or

2469 Hours

or

104 Days

or

15 Weeks Left.  

And if you ask me, its too darn far away.  But i'm enjoying the time with my family and I love watching Jordan interact with my family.  They all love him, and he loves all of them.  But most importantly we love each other.(:

Here is a poem I wrote. Its about Jordan and I. Our journey and struggle to get us where we are today,  It hasn't been easy, everything's been thrown at us:

Together

When I look at our past, the strength we have grown is apparent,

 every trial, doubt and fear has been thrown at us.  

It was foolish of our adversary to think the one place, 

the only arms, 

the very kiss I find solace in, i would leave in my past,

nothing has been left behind other then their ignorant judgments and a trail of weak tears.

 We have now over come the dark snare of thorns that tried to drag us down, 

for every time you had fallen,

 i would fall with you only to again ascend higher then ever in the past, 

for our love has taken us from desolate places to the enchantment of a child's fairy-tale,

 a princess' dream come true,

 for it is my own shining knight that i have found in a world that is relentless to the pleas of a heart lost in disbelief and fear.

some may call it happenstance,

 others a mere infatuation, 

we know the truth, 

my heart called for yours, and through their journey of years, 

all along they were answering each others beat, venturing steadily into the others arms,

 though a painful and lonesome endeavor, 

we were lead to the greatest of rewards,

 arms that hold tight, 

smiles that diminish our tears, 

and the voice of true love that conquers the darkest of fears. 






Side note:
with all that is being said above, I know some one might say and most likely will think the following:
"Ohh they think the hard part is all over now that they are engaged" or "just wait until they see how hard it really is to be in a relationship"
For you to think or say these things is quite ridiculous.  If you thought these things maybe you should think about how hard its already been getting this far as you read above. Do you think this makes us think it's all over and easy from here on out? If you do, i'm sorry you believe me to be that weak minded.  I know this is only the beginning and that it will be tough.  But i'm ready and I love him and I believe that if we both try a little harder each and every day we will come out on top.
Thanks,
-Kylee.